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Mar 31, 2007


& i felt something burn within me
yet again
why must fate play with us

& i tremble
noeing wad is going to happen next
can't u leave me alone?

& i await the change
but the old came back again, again
when will it ever come?

& i am tired
of school, of life.
even death is better

But yet i held on
to one small miserable life
what for?

For the small change.
For that moment of glory.
For that small little satisfaction
that let me know.
I exist.
I am alive.
And that i part of
the world


3/31/2007 06:55:00 PM | back to top

Mar 28, 2007


ar finally abit* free. still have eng project, td test paper to mark and den compile data, HRP....
haiz
nvm i shall start from tmr. if any SNGS gals who somehow see my blog now.please ALT+F4 now.or simply click the small [x] on the top right hand corner of the webpage.
cause if this spread, i will not live to see my next birthday.though i not looking for my next birthday.
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Scenario:
Semigod mouthing:Jia ee
Zhewei: Sexy (with that h0rn_ look)

:P:P:P:P
content UN-censored and base on a true first hand account. this scenario is at least 99.99% true. The remaining 0.01% is due to the editing process





Today:
the word of the day : ruiqism (meant to be say quickly to sound like racism)
Usuage: WA u think u maths/cchheeeemmmistry get A1 and become teachers' pet u qiang ar? Then can start niaoing ppl issit? WALUA. WAKAO. WASIAO. ruiqism ar.
or
use to refer to some1 following the footsteps of the particular* guy who so "gladly" let us use his name: u try follow the trend of ruiqism ar? good for you!
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BIO:kana send out by Jen Ting to feed gopal's mosquito while embracing the nature---by standing under the shade of gopal's tall tree. And here i must apologise for stepping on gopal's grass and killing one of gopal's mosquito (this is how uncle gopal keep ppl off his graa). Then later some1 watching THE video 'bout Tian Y_.

NPDP: nearly fall out. felt like hurling/puking/vomit/etc
and fainting at the same time. mouth super dry. then all my drill cannot do properly.
legs like lame liao. hands also. lucky i didnt kana substitute. whew. lucky got the break. then i felt better. lol.drill standard become abit better.

wondering why i agree to go for pdp...





---------& interesting facts filled up the world daily. But MY world can only be occupied by your love----------


3/28/2007 09:36:00 PM | back to top

Mar 25, 2007


take a step back
look into the past
find YOUR happy family
was it really that happy?

remain at the position
look into the present
find YOURself
are you happy?

take a step forward
look into the future
find YOUR next step; and the next and the next
will you been happy?

then the world revolves around you;'stead of the sun
your mind took a turn
what's the purpose of life?
what have you been doing all this while
was it right?
but what's right at the first place
and how wrong is wrong?

your mind took a second turn
what's the purpose of having friends
who have you been with all this while
are they your good friend?
but what separates good from the bad?
while the backstabbers live on?

your mind took the third turn
what's growing up?
have you really grown up?
but why not be the next Peter Pan?
but hasn't Peter Pan grown in maturity?
what's maturity and childishness?
what do you base it on?

your mind took the last turn
what exactly is death?
what courage do you have
to take that step?
but was that courage?
the line between courage and coward-ness is thin
can you diffrentiate?


-------------------& questions un-answered-------------------


3/25/2007 01:29:00 PM | back to top

Mar 16, 2007


you thought is fun; to be ME
and you decide;
to leave behind things;
you should not had touch;

Sadness;
i took it all

Happiness;
you took it away with you

Void;
you replace my heart with it

Emotionless;
the reason you give

Love;
lacking it

and yes
you thought it will be more fun
to leave me behind;
with a broken heart
with a broken self
to be filled with void
to be one;soul-less

Happy memories u left me
were long suck into
the void in my heart
into the deep dark hole


----------long to forget.------------


3/16/2007 11:06:00 PM | back to top

Mar 12, 2007


yay!!! recieved my sgt rank liao---now can take family photos of the ranks ><
now shoulder very tired---clicking of the .22 revolver for more den 100 times after "some" pumpings, followed by holding 1st pressure before u can go to 2nd pressure---its wtfomgwth!!!


watch this cool video on youtube



the video kind of cut off part of my blog...but bear with it :}

~~~~french fries;i love french fries;crispy golden;through and through;come on let's get some fries~~~~


3/12/2007 10:39:00 PM | back to top

Mar 11, 2007


15 years;
15 years since i entered this world;
with a wretched fate

15 years;
heaven toyed with me;
and you think i am wrong;
you're right---fate 's in it too

15 years;
since i look at earth;
with my misted eyes;
a work of beauty;
some may compliment the earth;
but look closer;
and you'll find;
the reflections of hell;

15 years;
explain was all i did;
but what good did i get; nothing
hope; was all i did.
in wish for a better life
but dream on; was the reply of fate;

15 years;
alive ; yet dead at the same time;
but its time i take back,
my rightly control.

&15 years;
finally;
i choose to turn the tables;
change my path;
the great ones hold me not,
thus i turn to Satan;
emotionless; i turn into
sadistic; i become
And shadows hunt me not;
once the hunted;became the hunter.
fate played me not; Heaven toyed me no longer
but the price to pay;
i became;
just another walking soul.


3/11/2007 02:26:00 PM | back to top

Mar 10, 2007


yes, today IS my birthday... and i m no longer a 14 yr old

till now got 7 peeps who actually said happy b'dae to me even when i didnt i tell em---they either ask for my b'dae or actually known it before hand.

hmm actually my b'dae lost its meaning quite long ago---
under my b'dae records---
1)No. of b'dae present recieved in life time--- 1
2)last celebrated b'dae with own b'dae cake---p2
3)last celebrated b'dae with shared cake with my brother---p5
4)No. of peeps who wish me happy b'dae or sing to me the b'dae song---50 at most

hmm...

but i dun mind liao---like i said---my b'dae lost its meaning long ago
but i appreciate those we say happy b'dae to me etc very much, so thanks lotsa~
so here i shun bian say early happy b'dae to those born in march
cyril (14th) Kae Yuan (17th) suan tai (21th) Randy(21th) and lastly YEAP Jun Rong (30th)
if i so stupid enough to get the date wrong or miss out some1 TAG me :}

btw for those whose "lucky" enough to see this post or realize that today's my b'dae,no need sing b'dae song or anything---if u wish me now its seriously fei

oh ya also must thanks the 7 person
1st to sing me b'dae song and say happy b'dae--- Hui Jun
2nd in line to wish me happy b'dae and even give me a present---Yu Heng
3rd to send me offline message of happy b'dae---Clement
4th to sms me and tell me happy b'dae online--- Francis
5th to wish me happy b'dae on msn--- Yisheng
6th to Tag me happy b'dae---Sheng Jie
7th to wish me happy b'dae on msn---Matthew

Thanks lotsa to these 7 :} And incase i left out any name u TAG me pls


3/10/2007 06:53:00 PM | back to top

Mar 6, 2007


Updated my blog liao---but skin haven find any nice ones to change into...haiz

today went to buy and go back school plant the kang kong seed for smrp ><
then go to the amk florist shop cannot find kang kong seed
so decide to go ntuc find, den find a similar packet of seed call kankon ><
at first want to put it back to shelf but lucky we smart enough to go and compare the pic on the packet with the real kang kong first... and it was kang kong!!!...stupid manufacturer go leave out the "g"s

whew---td submission dateline move again...no need that hiong


------------------& i found the missing piece in my life; you --------------


3/06/2007 09:48:00 PM | back to top

Mar 4, 2007


haiz today is sian
morning wake up watch tv
logging to msn and chat awhile
log of and continue to watch tv
space out
.....
den for the first time in my life,i felt that i was missing something
my mind was like thinking thinking and thinking of the missing part/s in my life
den my heart was like... dunno how to describe it but the process wasn't fun

haiz m i getting emo? hope not---change of topic

anyone born in lucky march , received a letter telling you to make ic BUT you haven make one yet AND want to make ic with some1? find me :)

haiz 6 more days to my 15th birthday
birthday wish no.1--- me to work harder in all subjects and in ep3/cca.
birthday wish no.2--- Dun gimme any presents; but i dun mind treats to lunch,drinks etc haha :p
birthday wish no.3---haven think of anything to put here...

haiz go to do my ihc project liao...

-----------------------and you took flight ;soaring high-----------------------------


3/04/2007 07:32:00 PM | back to top



cny reunion dinner roxz
- xcept for the service

here's the things that u can expect for a $20 ten-course meal ( 10 rite?)
-expect "yang zhou" fried rice as last dish--- * note the yang zhou fried rice is serve with open and close inverted commas
-expect DI-fruit punch
-expect to drink glue for some* particular dish
-expect fruit to taste very similar to microwave food serve in same sauce for all dishes
-expect dessert to taste like main course
-not to expect that u will be full
-not to expect a change of plate---if not the restaurant will close down



haiz this year lucky draw's ipod nano went to the sec 2 i/c
den second prize went crumpler went to sibei lucky remus(spell correctly?)
den 3rd prize dunno wad it is---maybe a thumbdrive or hard disk
4th price is a thumbdrive---dunno who is the lucky guy

den before dat still have 32 other prize
but i got none :{

nvm this year dun have wait for nxt year and the following and the following and the....

oh ya my mentee send me this website
http://www.dianyuan.com/bbs/u/32/1123031090.swf
*note 1 this is definitely not for the peeps who can't take scary stuff.
*note 2 if u seriously daring enough, open ur speaker to full volume.
*note 3 watch liao dun spoiler go and type in chat box to "warn others"

----------------------You left a void at where my heart should be--------------------


3/04/2007 12:29:00 AM | back to top

Mar 2, 2007


yay back from aphelion nite ...

today st nick-Hci exchange prog also ended ( for all buddy B)
haiz i 4get to buy present for my buddy >< only realise it after she gimme a letter
btw did Ji_ E_ give anything to Zh_ We_ ? :)


haiz today npdp training seems very hiong---maybe cause stayover nv slp enough :{ den my right arm muscle like very pain---den later do the arms drill i nearly cannot hormat or turun properly... but then again, arms drills roxs :}Then later SSS came to the parade!!! then change the drills steps to syf style...

Quoting a C.I : "Are you from a gold unit, or from a gold-painted unit?"

Yawn *blink**Blink*...nearly cannot keep my eyelids open liao but will only be slping at 12 after watching art central anime :}


----------------You left me behind; But u came back; when i left;-------------------


3/02/2007 08:49:00 PM | back to top

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